I know I've been lazy. Blogging wise. I used to blog differently but i have the perfect excuse; its been bloody hectic. Common tests are arriving in a week and i have had quite a number of presentations to clear. Anyway on to blogging...

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Vannessa is working at gardens till 1am today. I intend to go down and fetch her home =)

Well next week is e-learning and that means no school. Week after is common tests and right after that is my holiday which i will be spending all of it in New York. Ever since people knew i was going there, they've been asking me to get stuff for them like non stop. I've only got so much space in my luggage. Please don't be so presumptuous. I'll only get it for you if i see fit.

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I'm turning 18 soon and i still don't know how i should celebrate it...

I just finished one presentation. There is another on friday. I think i'm doing well considering all the last minute work.

I'm rather amazed at myself for not turning on the computer at home the whole of the previous week. Thus i didn't update my blog. I was deeply engrossed in a book i once read a long time ago. And i quite happy i managed to finish 2 enormously thick books within a week. Today i'm going down with Vannessa to Kino to get the third book in the Inheritance series. Can't wait. Do i seem like the type who reads???

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The rest of last week was spent rushing datelines for projects. Which i still have to continue due to 2 presentations this week. On thursday i attended a long time family friend's birthday. It has always been nice reminiscing with Kaimin the past and history we have. We sometimes fall into uncontrollable laughing fits as we constantly picked on my sister.

Thurday was also Vannessa and my 6 months. I couldn't spend the whole day with her because my mother said that i should spare a thought for people and attend this party. I want to its just that i've never been so serious with someone it seemed just as important i give her my attention as well. But what is done is done. I enjoyed his dinner party and i am starting to feel my parents becoming less understanding.

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Friday, Kaimin's family, my family, Vannessa and I went on a yacht to the bay of St John's island. I always get excited when we sail at sea, a series of questions always pop out about the water under us. Like, "what do you think is under there?" or "What if i fall over?" "Do you think there are sharks?".

This time I ask, " Oi dad, how much does it cost for a yacht like this?"

While looking around and surveying the wood works he replied

" Oh... Probably around 1.5 million"

o.o

It was especially calm and warming to sit next to Vannessa at the front, watching the approaching islands and wind brushing through our hair. We contemplated chartering the boat for ourselves one day and Dad agreed to it.

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Many other things happened this week.

But it would have to wait till another time.

Yesterday was the 100th day since granddad passed away.

I still miss him.

Had prayers and i was off to football competition at redhill. Late and lost i reached after they played 2 matches. We went close to winning a hundred bucks but i guess it just didn't matter because SweeLee was closing at 7.30pm. So Jonathan, Joel and I went on as Chengyong went home cause he felt sick. Reach aprox 10mins before they closed and bought a beginner's guitar for Jon. On the way home i got a message and realised i had work to do. But i went on with the guitaring session anyway.

So i sacrificed the whole of my Sunday sitting down here at my dining table. Giving my best attempt to finish up whatever I have. Taking occasionaly breaks to the balcony to rest and look out into the open greenery. Putting on Vannessa's headphones and lose concentration for a few seconds to the music. Its though, this subject, i don't know why i'm doing it too... IT in business. Okay actually i admit it helps. But i'm so damn tired from yesterday i am going to hate this subject even if it made me a million dollars. I mean i'm slouching now and i can't look at the screen properly. My eyes are fluttering shut and i don't know what to do for tomorrow's presentation. Much less what to wear. The consequence of missing school last monday haunts me the week after...

and you drive... and you drive...

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I woke up yesterday after a dream with my granddad. He asked me how i was, smiled, put his hand on my face and I woke up to a ringing phone

It was a nice dream...

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I seriously cannot wait to go to the states. Not for the sightseeing and what not, but for the shopping. I hope the recession hits hard for the US, all the exchange rates will go down and if the government follows the fiscal policy they will greatly reduce taxes and everything.

Things i want/need/intend to buy from the US and HongKong includes -

At least 5 pairs of jeans from G-star, true religion and levi's.

Tops from american apparel and .. actually not a lot of tops there...

Pouches and wallets from Prada =D

Few sporting goods from addidas and nike.

I'm already getting excited while typing all these down.

I'll be damn sad if i can't find fitting stuff. I'm not really in it for the brand, i just like some designs and i really hope i can find something nice.

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On Saturday, Johnathan and I acted like tourists from Hong kong to this sales person and it was damn funny i laughed nonstop and was giggling at the part where we both looked at each other deciding how much is 12 singapore dollars.

We finished Lost season 4, can't wait for season 5. Lost to me is one of the best TV series ever.

And in 2 mths 4 days, i'll be 18. Its such a big number...

I've got a number of stuff on my mind, but i guess sometimes, somethings shouldn't be mentioned at all...

Totally screwed up presentation. Wasn't prepared enough, only when i stood in front of everyone did i realise i didn't have enough pointers. It was more impromptu and very unrehearsed. When i was ending it i choked and stopped. So well, there you go.

Anyway after school i went straight home to sleep, i don't know why i'm so damn tired all the time. I need to get things back on track.

I feel a little out now and then...

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Tickets for ZoukOut are on sale already. Its on the 13th December Saturday. It's starting earlier, like 6.30pm so that you can capture the sunset with live performances. Electrico will be there. World renowned trance triumvirate Above & Beyond, currently ranked number 6 in the Top 100 DJ poll will be playing too. So it's gonna be pretty awesome. But i don't know if i'm going.

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I only had bread today.

Oh sweet mother of a ...

I'm in Business Statistics class now and i don't understand anything, everything. Seriously, nothing at all. And the tutor keeps on going, i feel like i'm falling behind and its not easy to catch up; like a race. I can tell today won't be good, but i'm going to spend all my time finishing up my work and preparing for Bcomm presentation tmr.

I woke up late so my dad left first with sister. I had to take the bus, which i must say i hate to in the morning. This bloody fellow kept knocking into me just to walk pass even though there wasn't enough space. I wanted to swear at him cause he pushed me just to get through. I hate people like that, they spoil the image of their generation. Once at the MRT station this old man ran out of the train and pushed me just so he can run to the other train on the opposite platform. I wasn't even in his way, he could run straight but no, he had to use his hands and push for no reason. The thing was, he still missed the train. I don't understand these people, a nice excuse me would be okay right? I hate public transport.

Anyway, from my cousin's wedding...

Well, I was the last to know my dad had a new car. Apparently the Lexus is gone and now its an MPV. So that it can carry all our family members without any space issues. I haven't even seen the car yet and its been here close to a week now. Also i didn't know dad was overseas. I don't know a lot of things happening in the family anymore...

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To you:

I can't take this anymore.

Its been quite awhile since we've talked. I've known you more than half my life? We've gone through so much together. It has always been us and us alone you know. You, me and the guys. But recently, we don't see you with us and we all know the reason. You have different priorities. It seems that to you, she always more important. You constantly announce how your life revolves around her and football, where was friends in that sentence?And she doesn't at all mind taking you away from us. I mean hey, i've not gone out with you for more than 2 months. And within this time i've not seen you for more than 12 hours. Its always quick walkbys or soccer saturdays that i see you. You see her all the time, every single day, and you can't just give us half a day? And let me be the first to say that it sucks.

Its as though you're slowly disappearing from our lives. You weren't even there for me when my granddad passed.

You of all people.

No "how are you holding up?" or " Are you okay?" I needed you there man. But she was more important obviously, more important than being there for a best friend.

Maybe it doesn't matter to you and it certainly doesn't matter to her. But i think the both of you are being selfish. I don't know how but i thought we came to the same school to spend more time together. Well, she's more important to you now. I guess this is how you tell apart true friends.

I wish you two the best, just don't expect me to be your best man at your wedding.

So brother, how's life treating you?

Well, just to let you know, i feel like crap because you aren't there...