Sometimes i really do wonder why I'm never good enough

Free falling

Perfect Match

We found love in a hopeless place - Rihanna

Slowly but surely, I'm becoming a happier person.

Happy that I made you happy... Hope you liked it

Every single time, my heart drops

You could be my it girl

Believe and try to have faith, it'll make things easier.

I don't want to leave you, we just got started. Its just not fair.

Funny how its the friends you trust the most that also judges you the most.

Every Breath - Boyce Avenue
It sounds like this is nothing new and that it hasn't
been for awhile
You wake up on the other side and you strain to force a
smile
The fairytale inside your head has become your new best
friend
But I can assure you, that I'll be there before the
story ends

'Cause when I needed a place to hang my heart
You were there to wear it from the start
And with every breath of me, you'll be the only light I
see

I'm racing to the finish line of a lifetime that's
barely started
The piece of my mind I left behind, I pray you keep in
your perfect garden
You waited on the minute hand and the countdown to last
for days
But I'm here to tell you, it won't be long before I'm
here to stay

Feels like I'm left hanging.

I think I'm a phase.

Need to remind myself once again:

This is the time of our lives, live it to the fullest.
Be smart, be stupid, be irresponsible, be childish, be retarded, be fun, hug, kiss, love, hate, fight, shout, scream, laugh, and smile. Look back at your life and know that there is a story to tell. Memories to treasure, people to keep.
Just dont wanna look back and realise my life is ordinary, you know...

Once again, i feel used

My heart's a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note

Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

To my stereo
So sing along to my stereo

I only pray you never leave me behind
Because good music can be so hard to find
I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

fuck my heart is still beating quickly

Now comes the hardest part

Its so difficult trying to look okay in front of eveyone. But i shall continue trying.

not just a coward ah, more like douchebag

I think i'm a coward

There's a fire starting in my heart

Reaching a fever pitch thats bringing me out the dark

Bloody bad thoughts ah, better knock it out of your head. Its never gonna happen.

Anyway diving was fun.

Just had a reaccuring thought that one can nv be content, ppl always yearn for something more.

Extraordinary > Ordinary

Live life to its fullest, sadly i can't say i'm doing that.

I wonder whether i'm happy, kinda forgot how it felt like.

Sometimes i wonder why i gave a damn in the first place... You bother about whats happening with your friends and how they are feeling, only to realise they are lying to you in the first place. Waste of both my time and feelings. Sods.

P.S i thought my blog was private but i just realised its not. I know you're out there ZHIXIAN!!!! knn better keep this a secret hor, even infront of our group pls, if you dont mind ;)

Hello there, I have officially turned 20 years old. The big 2!

Its been a long while since i wrote anything worth reading or taking into consideration.

However, i feel that there is no other way to say what i really want to and thus, blogging would be my only solace for now. I'm entering the army and finishing up with school, leaving behind many fond memories with beautiful people. Though, life has a way of telling you straight in the face, that things are not what it seems. Things get complicated, they get messy, fragile, unsolvable, destructive. People get angry, depressed, compulsive. They break down, they hate, they become nonchalant. The entire world seems to think that the rest of world owes them. Quoting a phrase one of my friends twittered, "If they do not bother, why should I". This to me, is incredibly screwed up. Imagine if the entire world thinks that way. No one would bother and put in an effort for one another. We picture a gorgeous community with lots of love and giving. However, how are we supposed to achieve that if we can't even learn to forgive and seriously forget about that past. The hardest part of ending is starting again, yes, but it can be done, with effort no doubt. Is it that difficult to remember the good times? My best friends have been there for me since the start, and are still here. It takes effort, we forgive and quickly start enjoying ourselves again. I detest complications and conflict among friends. It's just too... tiring...

So much for my 20th huh, all i wanted was just for everyone to get along together, that was my wish, when i cut the cake.