Today is last paper day =DDD

Which means one whole week of fun before i leave la.

I must have a list of things to do for the whole week. Something like,

1. Spend as much time with girlfriend/friends as humanly possible.
2. Pre-celebrate Christmas/New Year with everyone.
3. Pack for trip
4. Finish 'Friends' so that i can return to Video Ezy and stop that stupid $2/day fine.
5. Good question, i don't know, bum around and relax.
6. Oh figure out what to really buy in states, must go prepared.
7. Party.
8. Finish that bloody final paper first.

Well, i should sleep, tomorrow's paper is going to be a disaster, I'm sure of it.

8 . 7

Broken

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The broken clock is a comfort,

it helps me sleep tonight

Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts

I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

.

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain there is healing

In your name I find meaning

.

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head

I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead

And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes

That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart that's still beating

In the pain is the healing

In your name I find meaning

So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

I'm barely holdin' on to you

.

I'm hangin' on another day

Just to see what you will throw my way

And I'm hangin' on to the words you say

You said that I will, be ok

.

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone

I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

.

.

9

Well, the countdown begins...
10.

I wake up at 3pm. Thought about what you wrote.

It's still the same.

Because all in all, i make you feel empty.

You have no idea how much its killing me now.

Of all the times, this was one of the deepest cuts.

Never have I literally had to fight back tears.

Bstats common test is over. I spend 2 hours preparing for the test in school this morning. Well, it was futile. I'm pretty sure i failed.

Though on a lighter note, 2 papers left before holidays. Which reminds me, i have exactly 13 days left before i leave for states. And it'll already be 2009 by the time i'm back.

I just received another letter from NgeeAnn. Its a reminder for me to study hard and also to tell me that if i fail macroeconomics again, i will be dismissed from school.

Anyway today i studied with Serena at HollandV. I'm starting to go into study mood which is good. But then again i can't wait for the holidays to come. Though its kinda saddening, it being the end of year and all.

As most of you have already noticed, we're in the last month of 2008. And in this last 2 months or so, MM Lee went into some cardiac surgery, 400 people in Nigeria died due to the Muslim vs Christian war. HIV numbers shot up, bombing and killing in India and Bangkok has thousands of protesters. What a way to end the year off huh. Some time back we had the tsunami which fell on the 26th of December; Vannessa's birthday. If you notice, we always seem to have constant problems arising around the world. It affects everyone. Yet, most of us choose to do nothing about it. Well, i know i don't. Then again, we tend to forget all that's happening around us as we usher in a new year. We're all so busy getting gifts and presents, so busy organising parties, attending Zoukout, spending time with loved ones, that we all forget all the negative events surrounding us.

And at the end of it all, we stand smiling like idiots, staring at a ticking clock and counting down the last 10 seconds before we grab the person closest to us and lock ourselves in tight embrace.

When it gets to that point, i bet everything else wouldn't matter.

It won't matter.