You have no idea how hard it has been for me.
No one does.
Not even close.
I don't want to be judged.
But it seems as though I'm already in the process
of losing faith and trust from people i hold dearest.
And because of this,
I love and hate you so, so much...

You try to make me jealous.
Honestly, its working.
And i hate it
I simply do.

Hello. I've been posting more on fishinorbit.tumblr.com =) Kinda lazy to use blogger alr =/

Happy 400th Day =D

Oh and i got my license =)

Your friends are calling me when i'm asleep.
You don't reply my messages.
You never let me know when you're home safely
This is why i hate it when you go drinking.
Tell me how the hell am i supposed to concentrate on my TP later.

I've never been this afraid in quite awhile.
My throat is dry, i feel like running away.
I just found out from my brother that they are asleep.
But the last thing he heard from dad was "what the fuck".
He's furious.

So far, i've spent my life trying to figure out the meaning of existence.
I think that when i'm nearing my end, i would realize that this is it, nothing more.
Maybe figuring out the meaning of life, is life.