You have no idea how hard it has been for me.
No one does.
Not even close.
I don't want to be judged.
But it seems as though I'm already in the process
of losing faith and trust from people i hold dearest.
And because of this,
I love and hate you so, so much...

You try to make me jealous.
Honestly, its working.
And i hate it
I simply do.