knew it, she didnt love me at all.

always thought you'd be right next to me with motivational words at this juncture. guess its the total opposite. This really is kinda the worst feeling in the world...

and you nv try to make me feel loved when im insecure, you always just shrug it aside, say no, and leave out the details of everything. constantly makes me wonder if you're hiding anything from me. its been a long time since i felt this depressed. thanks, really.

its heart wrenching, if you can see it from my point of view, you wouldn't accept it. What you're doing to me is just downright disrespectful to my feelings. What if a girl knows my day plans and gives me a wake up call in the morning. Shows something right? Especially if i think the girl is cute and have been going out often with her. This is what you're doing to me with him. And you've been losing your temper at me so easily too. Obviously its because you alr have another interest whom you contact ever so often, more than me in fact. Im alr used trash, just waiting for me to leave on my own. Thing is, you'll nv give up the rest of your boys for me. because they are "harmless". don't play dumb, you know men better than i do. You're just playing along. Whatever, its your call on whether you want to salvage this. but then again i doubt you ever understand or give a damn about my feelings. So i think i'll just stay home and cringe in my bed while i continue to constantly imagine the amount of fun and flirting you have or are texting/calling with your "good friends".

Never wanted things to turn out this way... Its time to create a new page to blog to myself

Cant stop thinking. Cant stop tearing.

Sometimes i really do wonder why I'm never good enough